I don't know

So there's this step-sister on my husbands side who has cancer. From what I've recently read in an e-mail, it's terminal and the dr's have only given her like 6 months to live. How sad. Anyway, I don't know how to feel. I mean I barely know her. We don't see each other it seems at any other time other than the holidays. And Last year we went to be with her and other family for Christmas and New Year's. While we were there, I got my feelings hurt REALLY bad. I'm over that part, but I still feel as though I were poisoned at that time, and there is no cure. I heard once that she is faking this. I don't think it's very nice to fake cancer, if that's true. She has no hair. She used to have really long reddish hair. Since undergoing chemo and radiation, she has lost all of it. I prayed for her last night. I meant it. I just feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo disconnected from this situation. I don't know. I just don't know.~E.

Not wanting to be outdone by my good friend, I'm posting again. Lately I haven't been doing much around the house, but yesterday, I vacuumed all the floors, did a little maintenance on the vacuum and a few other things. It was great. Today, I'm still trying to keep going with all my "cleaning". Yesterday, my mil trimmed the lilac bush. It looks amazing! Anyway, I think she's going to do more today. I think it's so great that she wants to and likes to do yardwork.
So the saga continues. Ok. I mentioned to my mil that she should go get one of the dressers at the farm and bring it here to her new home for her use. And she said that she couldn't take it because it belonged to grandma and it belongs to the farm. I just don't get it. Nobody is using it, and grandma is gone. My mil is afraid that she would rock the boat with her siblings, much like I did the other day. Anyway, I say that possession is nine thenths of the law and since her things are in the dresser, it's HER dresser, but she really doesn't see it that way. Please explain it to me. Anyway, I asked her what happens when all the siblings die? And she said that the last living heir will be able to have it, ok so that makes sense. I see her point. But then so the dresser stays at the farm FOREVER? It just doesn't get it. What purpose does that serve? Anyway, I know she doesn't worry about her clothes sitting on the floor, but it's just a little weird to me. Oh well. I've been told that that's my issue, not hers. So maybe I can let it go. Or not!!:)
Now I need to click on the wheelchair. I hope I can see it. Things to look for in upcoming blogs....Pictures!!! Yeah. ~E.

In the blog competition, I'm ahead

Hey~I have been doing a lot of posting, missing you very much. lets try to work out the details of you coming over.~E.

Just for today

so today I don't really have much going on. I have a little Girlfriend's gathering at my church tonight, but other than that, not much to do. The kids are running up and down the stairs playing. And that's fine as long as they don't wake the baby. He's been in his swing since about 8. And to think, I haven't done anything since he's been sleeping. I could have gotten a lot done!! Well, I did take a shower, but I haven't done anything like cleaning or anything. Oh well. Last night I went thru all the kids toys and got rid of one big tote full again. What a huge difference. There are some toys that we have that are groups of things and it's not easy to separate those groups. Several toys that have separate pieces are missing some of the pieces so that's a bummer. But oh well. I took a lot of "baby" toys and put them into a tote as well. The older kids were just making a mess of all the toys. There's also a lot of books. I have so many and then since we are in a free book club, the kids get one book a month. Wow!! And they really like the books, except that they fight over them. My kids seem like they fight just like my brother and I did when we were kids. I have a feeling that's how it will be as they get older too. Hopefully not. I'm sure they will grow to love one another eventually. Well, I better go and check on the baby. I think I need him to eat. I have sprung a leak!!~E.

so much to do, so little time

What's this new version of Blog all about anyway? I don't have a google account, so I don't really get it. The kids are just making a mess of toys today. It's not such a big deal to me. I just know there are some toys that I really need to put away and save for the baby. I have a few things to do today and I really want to get it all done. I have to remember to return some books to the library and then I want to change all the bedding. The kids sheets are especially dirty. I just need to sit down and figure out what I want to do. The house is all cluttered. I will write more later. ~E.

about today

Today is a good day. We woke up late, but were able to make it to church. After church there was a meeting for Kidstuf and then we came home. We at lunch at the church so that was good. When we got home, I was really cold. I cranked up the heat and threw some blankets on but that still didn't help. I was just freezing!!! But now I am feeling much better because I took some medicine. In fact when we ran to the store I was so hot, I started to sweat. We just ate a really good supper of hotdogs with chili and cheese. It's a meal we really enjoy. Tonight, I am going to work a little in my computer room and organize it. I try to organize it everyday. It doesn't always seem to work though. The baby isn't doing a strong suck when he nurses so I don't feel like I'm emptying and it doesn't seem like he's getting anything. He seems a little frustrated. I feel kind of sorry for him. It's been like that all day. I hope nothings wrong. While we were at the store I guess he burped like 4 times, and twice really loudly. I guess he must be full of gas. Hopefully it's not from what I've been eating. Well, I'm trying to keep up in here but I must go now, I've got lots to do. ~E.

Hey how you been?

I haven't seen you in a while and I was just wondering how you're doing? I got your comment, and have been going to town on blogging, huh? Anyway, if you are available, you are still invited to come over. Let me know when or what works best for you. ~E.

what is it with me, anyway?

So today, I went shopping for a couple of hours and my kids were wonderful!!! Well, that is until the last half hour. We were getting ready to leave, but I decided that we should take a bathroom break before we left. So everyone got out of the cart and then nobody wanted to get back in, and they started throwing big huge fits!! It was really awful. It was such a huge turn from their behavior before we went to the bathroom. Ughh!!

Then after that, we went to visit some uncles and get a few things that I get from one of them, and I always just say in a teasing manner, that because they have such cool things, I'm going to come and take it. But I'm always just joking. I've never and never would I take anything from them without their permission. Anyway, I said it again, and one of the uncles got really mad at me and asked how I would like it if someone came and took all my stuff and whatever, and then he also said something about coming over to a locked door!! I apologized and told him that I wasn't being serious and I didn't mean for him to take me seriously. When we left, my MIL asked what his problem was. I was a little relieved that she knew that I was kidding around. Anyway, then she also went on to say that the stuff I was looking at, probably didn't even belong to her brothers and who's to say she wouldn't come and take it herself? Anyway this is just the sort of thing that always gets me into trouble. I keep joking around and just talking about doing stuff, never actually doing, and then end up upsetting people and then having them hate me. I do feel like I was liked by this uncle before tonight. I guess maybe it's just been something that's been on his mind since the first time I said it. There are things that are in the house that do legitamately belong to me, and only those things would I take, oh and the things that the other uncle saves for me. I asked my MIL about the amount of material wealth they had growing up, and maybe that's why this uncle doesn't want what little he has to be taken. I can understand that. I just wonder though, who will get the lovely privelage of going thru all that stuff when the siblings who own the home are all gone?.....~E.

One more thing.....

this is me and my little pappoose going out trick or treating. That baby carrier is so awesome. This is my third child and I've finally figured out how to use it. I'ts a good thing it came from a friend!!~E.

stuff

So my dear friend really wants me to post something. I haven't in a while, so who could blame her? This is a way for me to stay connected I guess so I will post something really awesome. Like, pictures of my new baby boy. I had him in October. I just can't believe how big he's getting. It's really late right now, and I'm only awake because my oldest son woke my when he fell out of bed. The poor thing. He only suffered a bloody nose, so that's a good thing. Then of course, my daughter woke up and wanted to come to bed with her dad and I but with the baby in bed with us, it's hard becuase her little 2 1/2 year old body might accidentally hurt the baby, and of course we don't want that. She's been doing really good about not coming in our bed lately. I hope she's not regressing. But even if she is, that's ok, it's just harder with the baby and all since I'm nursing. Anyway, it's late, and I should probably post some really fun photos of the life and times. Here goes.... ~E.