Ahhh the tube

I just don't get soaps. I mean seriously. I was talking to a friend earlier today and I would like to go out to lunch with her. Well, tomorrow is the only day that I am available. I have an Ultra Sound at 2:00 and so I was thinking that we should meet for lunch at 11:00. However, the Young and the Restless is on at 11:00. My friend will absolutely NOT budge. It's like she will die if she misses her show. I said something to her about being obsessed and she gave me this speech about all the millions of women hooked on soaps. It's a sad thing, if you ask me. Anyway, we aren't going out to lunch because of her handicap.:) It's her loss, I guess. I just don't get soaps. Can someone explain it to me? I know I've done my fair share of soap watching. But I just don't get the obsession now???~E

I sure do miss this girl......

tvs and trucks

Ok, so I was hoping to do this sort of separately but, I'm sure you'll still get it. This is the picture of our new truck. It is a 1998 Dodge Ram. It has running boards on it for easy access. It is fully loaded with a/c, power seats, cd cassette player, you get the idea. It is exactly like the truck that I unfortunately wrecked. Anyway, it's ours now. And we do drive it a lot and it is nice to have my husband back.:~


The other picture is of a tv. The object that runs this household. TV is on ALL THE TIME. Today it wasn't on all the time, but a lot of the time. Anyway, I really would like to disconnect the cable come sometime in June. I was discussing this with Marie as she really enjoys watching her soaps. And tonight, I am writing about the tv, because I was trying to talk to her and shut off the tv for about a minute. Anyway, the program that I shut off, I am recording, so to me, it's not like she's really missing anything. Anyway, she got upset and started to cry a little bit. I told her that I was recording it and that she didn't have to get upset. I turned the tv back on of course. The point that I'm trying to make with the tv is that we have so many movies that we haven't watched. I mean brand new ones, never taken out of the package. This summer holds new television show premieres~Oh goody, just one more thing to do. And today with the tv off, I read a book. It was nice sitting in silence reading. I admit, that I am the one who turned it on, but I seriously think that it needs to be shut off. Anyway, when we discussed disconnecting the tv for the summer, Marie got kind of mad at me. I asked her what she did when she worked and she said that she kept up on her soaps by reading the magazines and that on her days off she would watch the shows. But there would be days when someone else would be at home and she couldn't watch what she wanted. So that is why she got her own tv. So it was a tv war with the two tvs right next to each other. Seems kind of annoying if you ask me.. And now that there is a tv in her room, that's what would happen if I were home and wanted to watch something else. She would just go into her room and watch her own show. I feel pretty strongly about having our cable disconnected. I am pretty sure that if I were to discuss this with my husband, he would probably side with his mother. Now I ask you, is there anything wrong with that???? The other thing that's so funny about this is that one day a long time ago, we were talking about Marie watching her tv, and watching the kids. Jerry said to me, that he didn't mind her watching her shows. Now I wonder if I were a sahm, If it would be the same for me??? Anyway, the point is just silly but I still wonder sometimes. I personally wonder when one comes to the realization that it's just not ok and to look at all the time you wasted watching tv. I'm not saying that I don't have my moments. But I am willing to give up the tv, where the others in my family are not. I guess since I pay the bills, I can choose which ones I want to pay, right?~E

thi is it

here is the bane of my existence.

HIS will be done

Today, against my better judgement, but to make my husband so very happy and to bring him out of his pouty slump, (I guess I forgot to tell him I was going to ignore his pouty ways~DARN!), my husband and I are going to forever change the path of our lives. I hope that God is listening and watching and that His will shall be done and that nothing comes of this, I say NOTHING. Except maybe a firm slam back into reality. When the boy comes home from work, we are going to go to the lot and see if we can bring our lives into financial ruin with the purchase of a truck. There I said it. Here you read it. Your eyes do not decieve. There isn't anything that can be said to me that I don't already know. There isn't a way that I haven't tried that I can convince my husband otherwise. This is just so wrong and I really hope that once we leave the car lot, it will be ceased from mentioning again. I really hope I can put the past in the past, and let my guilt go. This is just another way that the devil is controlling our lives. Had I been more diligent in the past, perhaps this wouldn't be about to bite me in the butt. Anyway, wish me luck and please pray for the Lord's will to be done in this situation.~E.

Hey check out my new truck!!~NOT

isn't she a beauty? The apple of my eye, the discord of my relationship, the love not of my life, the set back in all finances, exactly what my husband wants and can't seem to stop thinking about. It's so hard to want and want and want.~E.